This is the time of the year when you know for sure that you are out of time for this year and you have not completed most of what you wanted to do for the year.
Don't mistake me .. am not a person who makes new year resolutions and wants to realise them by the end of the year ... Am a normal person who has a few things to complete by the end of an year that's all.
When I look at the list I wanted to do .. I have not done most of the things I wanted to do ... I don't know where the time flies ... and most of the times I really think am wasting it .. I don't know what higher purpose am looking for ... but looking back at a year i always feel that I have done absolutely nothing.
Depressing ... I don't know if making lists are a good thing ... and feeling like a loser when you realise that you have not done anything you hoped for is a crushing feeling. :(
I think that usually lists help you , get you where you want to go ... give you a sense of purpose and tell you where to go ... but if u go in a totally opposite direction you feel like an idiot... What you want to do and where fate is leading you is at total odds with each other ....
Another year and more time is wasted and more depressions ... dont know if there is something wrong with my expectations or the path the cosmic forces want me to follow ...
Irritatingly depressing ..........
